is when you get exactly what you want. No desire is left unmet, no expectation unfulfilled. You call the shots, you make the rules, and you determine the entirety of how your life ends up.
But that sounds pretty good. So why is it hell?
Because you remove the possibility of the unexpected. The unforeseen and unplanned for is where we learn about the harsh but beautiful reality of the world. A photograph without contrast is white, and a painting with every color is black.
Not everything will go as planned. There will be stumbles and you will fall out of rhythm. In these moments is the chance for grace.
Rejecting what you did not intend is isolation from the source.